last day of 2009 ~

2009 finally end after today !!
i wish that it end fast , hence also dont wish to it end so early
..cuz .. i dont wan to get old ..
i wan it to end fast is becuz i wan 2009 nightmare and sad things to perish and be washed away from my memories ! !

i dont noe how to describle it here ...
becuz i am a person that does not explain things well / clearly .... 
either talking, typing , chatting or jokking
then lead to some misunderstanding ..  ,,
Maybe becuz of this reason i even offended some of my friend without me knowing ?!?! ,
becuz i cant say things clearly ... darn ,,,,
things arent going so well on 2009 ... with my few of my classmate or few other friend i guess ..
i hope after 2009 ....
mean 2010 will be better for me ...
also poly !!!! my new sch life !! thats why 我很期待要上poly =)

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just now i was chatting with one of my friend ,,, lol ..
it was like suddenly angry with me ,,, i duno y ? wat happend ?
or is'it  i say smt wrong ??? .. nah .... just call me f*ckoff  ... suddenly so rude to me ?!
i was shock !!!
WHY ??????? WHAT HAPPEN !! ???  =.=

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i found that maybe i was too talkative ????
should i change the way i am now ????  
should i become more quiet type ????
should i try to talk less ????
if me answer is yes , sure hard to make new friends de ...lol
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thats pathetic , im feeling low now ...
cant slp becuz of this , and think of other things as well ...
 .... arrrr ~~~

2009 ~~
am i happy ?? ?
 not really  ...cuz  uhappy things are more than the happy things for sure..

only music that can cheer me up ...
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many things that wan to type here ..
but i dont think even my bros will read . cuz long wind ~ LOL