.......My anger rise with this picture shown !!!! this are the feeling in my heart !!! why???????
well ...super bored today ...
just not right time to go out today?? ..zzz ...
just about to get pissed off, while going out with some friends ..total 6 ppl
Why???????
becuz they just talk among themselves. i felt like kana ignored “(this let me think of when i was in secondary sch life , LONELY!!! )" ..ZZZ ...
I HATE this feeling!!!! ... ARGHHH!!!! DAMN it!!! ... CB, FUCK!!! ...
i just wanted to explode my anger & say: "KNN , u 4 talk so happy on the front, then Louis & i walk on the back so lonely & quiet !!! "....
but i endure ,,, 忍 忍 忍 忍 忍 忍 忍 忍 忍 ！！！ 。。。可恶 ！！
cuz i will never explode my anger on my friends .... unless enermy!
but at that time, one of my friend (i know him quite well) says: "sorry , i know u are BORED , i'm sorry abt that".
then i said :" its really ok , i understand that , cuz u & the two friend long time never talk together le ma , so must talk more!" ..( i really understand that !!!! & never blame him)
BUT i get angry is becuz , the two just (talk & walk) all the way with my two friend & left louis & i lonely & kana ignored feeling... ( i just duno how to describe well enough)
this will let me think of, people who are so call POPULAR ,FAMOUS, WILL NEVER be IGNORED !! ITS TRUE !!! REALLY TRUE !!!! MAKE SENSE !!
just let me think of WHY most ppl are like that !!! cuz they will never know they are like that !!! ARRHGHHHH@#%%$@$
MAYBE i will become DEVIL ONE DAY >>>> if i over reach my sadness level !!!! .. JKJK!!! LOL
Dear friends, everybody surely will face bored, ignored,& lonely sometimes. But not the famous one.
so i hereby wanted to say that, do treasure friends around you who is really good to you. 千万不要等到失去了才后悔！！ .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..
btw i always cherish all of my good/best friends around me ... i hope this sadness story won't happen to me again ...
or else i'll become a changed person in everything like ZHAO ANNA(luo shang shi) !! LOL , JKJK ... ARHHAHAAHHA
if i change my attitude to joker & talkative type will u notice me ?? .. i guess not ba , unless for my true friends !
btw i'm feeling a lot better when i scold out all unhappy things down here ... !
.. LOL ....
u guys after read this will think i have gotten mad ba ?? .. lol ..no man , i'm still cheng long, not ( luo shang shi ) ... sorry guys that i've written those sad things. . . becuz i bet most of u will never know what is the feeling of being lonely ... ... (especially 5 years in my sec sch life) .. i hope it wont ever repeat again . ARHH (>#<)
qns: ??? reason that i was lonely is becuz of i does not know how to entertain ppl ??? MAKE SENSE !! .. cuz i really a super lousy joker & talker. . . & i really like to THANKS TO MY TRUE FRIENDS that always stand on my side, & i know who u r in my mind .. !! thanks a lot !! T.T
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